Today, I’m starting a detox as well as starting back at the gym.
I’m not up to my full dosage on my mood stabilizers yet so I’m not completely under control.
As well as that, my mother and I spoke and it only lead to her telling me to stop taking my meds cause nothings wrong with me. She doesn’t talk to me, or listen to me enough to know any of that.
Hopefully, the changes in my life style will stick and not only will I start feeling better mentally, but physically too.
I am envious of my rats at times.
They have each other and love each other…cuddling up every night. There only spats being over a little food…and almost instantly they make up and start grooming one another.
I aspire to one day have a relationship like theirs.
My new medication[[s]?] has/have these horrible side effects in the beginning that make me feel sick and horrid.
I’m freaking out a lot.
It’s supposed to fix my manic behavioral issues along with everything else…but right now I feel fucking worse.
I feel like I have to puke.
I tried to puke.
I can’t puke.
Ive started lamictal and a higher dosage of zoloft.
The side effects currently are making me feel queazy…but then again I think I might be getting sick so it could be that too.
Either way I feel like total shit and I can’t wait for this feeling whatever it may be linked to, to go away.